So annoying

i can't do anything, it's really annoying, or i can but my parent won't give a 'yes' it's always freaking NO! i', really tired of that f_cking word, those to letters that can ruin a lot in ones life, my parents is soo overprotecting. i now that sometimes that can be a good thing, 'and they just do it to protect you, from all evil' IF YOU DO THAT, THEN I CAN'T LEARN ANYTING! I FEEL LIKE IN A PRISON! always so unfair, i finally thought they would give a little of me, but nooo. my mother asked HOW i could take there over, about money and stuff, i already have money and we had a way - actually TWO ways of getting there - City 2 - but ofc. she had to say no, why? just because, just to show that she is the one that determines. it's really annoying that they won't let me do a f_cking thing! so grrr. yes, i'm being a little kid right now, but seriously, i now that i am a person who doesn't really believe in friends, or i'm a person who now that your best friends can stab your back, but still ... i still have friends, and my parents now what i've ben trought, those family issues we had, that woman who came into our life and ruined us all, that we kind off 'betrayed' each other, or we did something stupid. not just that i got bullied in school, outside i had many friends, but in the school i didn't really have some, yes i did, but not as good as they would protect me like they are doing now, from all bad and evil. where were you before 'friends'. anyway, i really don't want to be there again, i'm still being bullied a little, or sometimes peole outside my class have to say something like 'ew' just to show of their friends how cool they think they are, really ridicilous. people look at me and thinks that i'm really strong, yes, i'm strong, ut i can be weak too. i can cry, i can feel pain ... or actually i'm a little cold, but when it really hurts, it hurts really bad then, sometimes i think that i can't feel the pain because i'm used to it.

Lora, Ria, Baby, Spyttemås, Bums, Katelle etc. you have to know that i'm not just evil to hurt you, but to protect my self from pain. to run away from the darkness that takes over my heart. mom, dad & grandma PLEASE give me some freedom, please, i beg you, nothings gonna hurt me, you have to let go of me sometimes. you can't blame yourself if i get hurt. it hurts more inside than outside, hmpf.

when i'm annoyed, sad etc i listen to Anna tsuchiya, or when i feel like, i now that instead of listening to rock i could listen to some more fun to cheer me up, but i just can't go away from Anna, her songs i so amazing, i really love her. relax, soon i hopefully would be happy again, watching some KPOP videos, he. ah.