Not fragile

i'm gonna keep staying strong, cuz' i know it's not the last time i will cry, people keep judging me 'such a cold person with no feelings' 'so mean' 'you made her evil like yourself' - i'm so tired of the same things all the time, i'm so tired of being in a box where the name is 'evil' or 'mean'. Don't judge me when you haven't felt my pain or walked a day in my shoes. I got through a lot, probably much more than you ever did in your life, but i keep smiling, did i ever tell about my pain? you guys keep talking about the little things you don't like in your  life, while people have real problems, have i ever bothered you guys about my pain? family problem, school, friends ... aiiish, no peace.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piWsn9BGt48

a tree whose leaves are withered and fallen.

- Yuki

Why

It only keeps going down, do i have to cry in silence everyday from now on? Why does this alwas happen to us, why do people come and fuck things up in our family, why do they always fight and end up leaving, why did you go from me? Was it that much i meant for you? Why was it so easy for you to say goodbye, just because of dad, it's my fault too? You know i would have given my whole family for you grandma, you know i would had done that. I'm glad that you aren't angry at me, but why leave this house? i love you and i know you love me, but stay here, this is your house.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=IzTnZECc13g