yes, i'm sick again for the 923788437857 times, there is really something wrong. i get sick every second week omg man. anyway, i want to write something to one of my best friends, her name is Ria, and this is for her:

Hello Ria, i know you get hurts so many times that i can't count, and that's because you are very sensitive. being over sensitive isn't always a bad thing, it is one of those things i like about you, that you are cool and stil sweet at the same time. remember that all those things you hate about yourself, some others love, and that what makes you to you. believe me when i say that someday a nice guy (hopefully asian, lol o.o) will vome and say 'i love you' and mean it, just like i'm saying, i love you Ria. and you know that these three words is coming from my heart, and you know that i'm a person who doesn't say 'i love you' to anyone, and you knwo you are special to me. not just because you love kpop too like many others think, but because that you are you. we all love you for who you are, don't change. saranghaeyo unnie ~~ <3

two different ways - which way?!

there are always TWO ways. you take one way and follows it, sometimes it's the wrong and other times it's the way to happiness. listen to your heart, when you take your way, close you ears and listen to yourself, YOUR heart, because it's YOUR way. no one can tell you which way you have to go. people makes mistakes, but you learn of them. you have to make mistakes for knowing what not to do, and what to do next time. there will always be a next time, believe it or not, a second change does exicst. don't think your hope is over, believe, okay, believe in yourself. NO ONE IS WRONG! We're different, but not wrong. people who is bullying others, thinks bad about them selfs, have problems,  have mistakes, and because they know that they have many mistakes, they are trying to bring your mistakes out, or self making some. everybody has a mistake, everybody did something wrong. people who bully others, just THINK, think if you were in that situasion, WHY do you have to make people kill themself, is it good knowing that you are a murder? does that makes you cool? does your friend think you are a funny and cool guy/girl? no, sometimes they would think that you are a BIG idiot. i'm asking WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? why would you make someone feel bad about themself. even if they don't kill themselves, you still killed them inside, and that makes you to a murder. and people who cuts in themselfs, why make you hurt more than they already do to you? why don't you instead make you stronger, get the pain away by hitting you pillow. just something that don't leave you scars, because one day when you feel better and happy, you will look at those scars and think about the past, and that would make your heart crumb. you would think, why did i hurt myself? i wasn't better than them, IF YOU HURT YOURSELF, THEN THERE'S NO DIFFERENCE IN THEM HURTING YOU. you get the pain away by cutting, but you it would come back, and then you have to care about TWO pains. scars will always be there, don't make them haunt you, don't make the stupid scars hold you down. LIVE you life, just think about the future, maybe you would be a famous singer, maybe you would be a great doctor and have a nice family, but you can't know if you stop your life right away. please, i beg you, don't hurt yourself. i'll say it again:

we're different, but not wrong.

- CL.

if you hurt yourself, then theres no difference in them hurting you.
- Yuki Nun (me hehe)

CL is from an popular group in Korea, the group name is 2NE1 and they have four members: CL, Dara, Minzy & Bom. and they make amazing songs that makes you feel better, and most of the time it's like they are singing your story, there are songs like: I am the best, Ugly, Go Away, Lonely, Follow Me etc.

MAKE YOURSELF STRONGER, NOT WEAKER. please close your ears, when your friend is saying 'come here!' because it's your decicion if you want to, they can't take you down, only if you decide to go down. don't smoke, don't party all night, don't do stuff like that, just to be cool or just to people accepting you. cuz' do you want ONE friend who loves you as you are, or MILLION friends liking you for who you not are. you decide! believe me or not, one true friend is better and million fake friends. the one true will always be there for you, while the fake one will be all around and most of the time behind your back with a knife. FIGHT.

Yaprak Dökümü

it means defolation if i got the english word for it correct, in danish it means 'bladtab' to direct translate. sometimes it's like my family life is from the turkish drama 'Yaprak Dökümü' the family always gets problems and slowly getting away from each other, but in a way they still hold tight to each other. just that the man in house in the drama is more like my grandma, and the woman my grandpa. we are the blad from the tree falling down to the ground, because it couldn't hold the three for much longer, and other grows out.

So annoying

i can't do anything, it's really annoying, or i can but my parent won't give a 'yes' it's always freaking NO! i', really tired of that f_cking word, those to letters that can ruin a lot in ones life, my parents is soo overprotecting. i now that sometimes that can be a good thing, 'and they just do it to protect you, from all evil' IF YOU DO THAT, THEN I CAN'T LEARN ANYTING! I FEEL LIKE IN A PRISON! always so unfair, i finally thought they would give a little of me, but nooo. my mother asked HOW i could take there over, about money and stuff, i already have money and we had a way - actually TWO ways of getting there - City 2 - but ofc. she had to say no, why? just because, just to show that she is the one that determines. it's really annoying that they won't let me do a f_cking thing! so grrr. yes, i'm being a little kid right now, but seriously, i now that i am a person who doesn't really believe in friends, or i'm a person who now that your best friends can stab your back, but still ... i still have friends, and my parents now what i've ben trought, those family issues we had, that woman who came into our life and ruined us all, that we kind off 'betrayed' each other, or we did something stupid. not just that i got bullied in school, outside i had many friends, but in the school i didn't really have some, yes i did, but not as good as they would protect me like they are doing now, from all bad and evil. where were you before 'friends'. anyway, i really don't want to be there again, i'm still being bullied a little, or sometimes peole outside my class have to say something like 'ew' just to show of their friends how cool they think they are, really ridicilous. people look at me and thinks that i'm really strong, yes, i'm strong, ut i can be weak too. i can cry, i can feel pain ... or actually i'm a little cold, but when it really hurts, it hurts really bad then, sometimes i think that i can't feel the pain because i'm used to it.

Lora, Ria, Baby, Spyttemås, Bums, Katelle etc. you have to know that i'm not just evil to hurt you, but to protect my self from pain. to run away from the darkness that takes over my heart. mom, dad & grandma PLEASE give me some freedom, please, i beg you, nothings gonna hurt me, you have to let go of me sometimes. you can't blame yourself if i get hurt. it hurts more inside than outside, hmpf.

when i'm annoyed, sad etc i listen to Anna tsuchiya, or when i feel like, i now that instead of listening to rock i could listen to some more fun to cheer me up, but i just can't go away from Anna, her songs i so amazing, i really love her. relax, soon i hopefully would be happy again, watching some KPOP videos, he. ah.

Chipmunks & Glee

yeah, i love Alvin and the Chipmunks, i get goosebumps when i hear them singing.<3 is that so wrong? D:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUlNQDAaDSc

and i love some songs of Glee, they have really nice voices and covers.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Do3ewXQdQ64

a distance.

yeah, we have gym in our school and it's on every friday, and this time it was my turn to be the teacher for a day and i was supposed to do that with my friend Ria. but unfortunately she didn't come, she probably forgot it. and i don't know if the reason is because og TMNT - that we were 'fighting' a little again or talking about how i dislike them now - L&K (Nr. 2 and 4). she was really down after hearing that, so i don't know if that's the only reason for not coming today or if it just was because she was sick? i don't know, but yesterday she wrote something speciel for me, that she really likes me and think i'm speciel and that i know her best even throught i'm not her best friend (she is speciel to me too) LIKE A FRIEND! we're not gay lol. xD anyway, later she was down because we four kinda broke up... so... yeah. we have to solve this problem so we can be together again all four - hopefully. i hope the best for us, so we can have fun and not be sad. okay, the problem with me is that i just that i can move on, and they can't. because i have been thought things that people cut in them self for - and maybe kill - but i won't hurt myself i would rater make myself stronger, i think that is soooo much better. you have to think that these people only are kids, that we only are kids and think it's funny to hurt someone. so those kids who hurts you inside and out, just think that maybe someday they will need you, that they would be under you. go with the thought that you are the best for yourself. if something around you is bad, then you take yourself down too. you go the dark way, you squize youself in to a little box, come out, and show the world that they can't take you down. and people who cuts in them self, they would treat you as you treat yourself. if you hurt yourself why wouldn't they? stop it, do something about and don't just stand. please, i beg you, don't let yourself down. always think about how your furture could be, cuz' your future is gonna be how YOU make it, because it is yours, it is in your hand, not other peoples! believe in yourself.

I'M UNBREAKABLE.
I'M A FIGHTER.

GOOD MORNING!

gooodmornign everybody! i woked up for like an hour ago, lately i'll sleep to 11 o'clock and up, but today i couldn't sleep much. idk, why ... maybe because of my nose? keep running, argh. when i am sick, theres no paper in the house anymore, lol. now i'm making my breakfast, or it is in the toast machine lol. byeee ~

Camping Trip

it's a loooong time ago, but here is some pictures of when i was on a camping trip with my school, i'm not putting pictures of my friends in here. lol, it wasn't really 'camping' trip, there was a swiming pool and other stuff ahhahaha. we didn't even sleep outside.

why the hell did i take a picture of the ground? owo

well, hello there finger!

well, hello there Mr. Foot!

... wauw, i really suck at taking pictures. .___.

sleep Yuki Nun sleep!

yeah, i'm not tired so i am just surfing the internet. btw, i am sick ... for the hundred times in this year. omg, i think it because of my cat. such a lovely cat btw.<3 oh, i call myself Yuki Nun on this blog, kekekeke, sounds ridiculous and if you know the reason then it gets more ridiculous ... the reason is, my name means snow ... it means snowdrop, snow rose and A LOT of other things i don't remember. and in japanese 'Yuki' means snow and ofc. i wanted korean too so guess what? 'Nun' means snow in Korean (what google tells, lol.) soooo my name is 'Snow Snow' here. ahahha, i think it's funny. no? okay.

i have like a hundred pictures of him! srsly, my whole iphone is filled with pictures of my lovely cat.<3

OMG THE TIME IS 00:28!!!

TMNT broke up?

yeah, we are a group of friends - 4 - and we are like ninjas hehehe, because we are sooo cool. lol. we are always hanging out in school and having fun, and we help each other with problems. i really like that we have this group, and so do they. but lately it's like we're only two and two. me and Ria and the other two(Nr 2 & Nr 4) in the group. me and one from the group(Nr.2) had a 'fight' so i didn't want to keep this friendship anymore, like i said i say 'goodbye' really easy. i think the two in the group - not Ria - was talking about me with another friend, who i don't really like. she's kinda fake, she's like not showing who she is, and i think she can do a lot of hurtful things. anyway, this friend let's call her Nr. 2 because she was Nr. 2 when we danced to TMNT (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles) she was a little 'weird' she was angry or something i think, when we wrote on facebook, and the next day she wasn't herself, normally she would scream and laugh or whatever, but she was quit and angry, when i critizied her she was like 'omg okay -.-' and normally she would be like overreacting a 'HUUUH?!?' and then laugh, but she was like rolling her eyes and stuff, then later i could totally see she was talking about me with Nr. 4 and the 'fake' friend. i think i know what's going on, but still not sure. so we had a fight later on facebook, and i said 'goodbye'. my friend Ria is all sad now, because before all this happened, we were like 'TMNT FOREVER WE PROMISE YOU RIA!' because she really loves us and she used to get bullied, so now she has a group of friends to hang out with, ofc. she has other friends and two best friends, but we are something really speciel to her, so i'm kinda sad that she is sad, that we are kinda splitting. she used to cut in herself and stuff and she doesn't like herself, with us she feels like she is something. she is usully shy and stuff, but she said "let's go to Talent on our school and sing together!" and i was like "would you really sing?! because you are normally very shy and wouldn't even think of soing such a thing!" and she was "yes, but it's only because i know i have you guys behind me" aaaaw.<3 we three without talent was going to rap and Ria with a beautiful voice was going to sing - Mirror by Lil Wayne and Bruno Mars - so i would at least do this for her, but ... yeah i don't know. She is speciel to all of us, but most me.

maybe this good friendship would turn upside down. hope it would last, hope it would be like good times till we go out of school, and hopefully still having contact to each other. hmmmmmm.
it could end really bad, i have a really REALLY bad temper.

^this picture did my friend draw from a picture on the internet, nive huh?^

too bad it was a waste of time ...

- btw i'm sorry for my bad english, i'm from Denmark but feel like writting in english.

Anna Tsuchiya

i really love her, and her speciel voice. her songs is so good!<3 really love it! change youself, my fate, rose etc. they are so good. i love listening to her songs when i am angry or sad, ofc. i listen to kpop when i am angry og sad or happy or whatever, but when i am angry or sad, i listen to rock - most jrock. i hope Korea in the future will make good krock songs, FT. Island is more like ballad rock, and CN Blue is rock too, but i want like jrock. where you really feel like it is rock.

ANNA TSUCHIYA FIGHTING!

trust only yourself

yes, you can only trust yourself. no matter how sweet she/he smiles at you, you can only trust yourself. 'friends' is just seven letters that will dissapear later in your life. don't be lonely, but remember that every friend has i knife in their hands and they are not scared to use it. some friends stay, but believe me they have at least hurted you one time. i'm just saying be carefull for not getting hurt, some scars doesn't heal. not that i have tried something really big, it's just that i know the word 'trust' is just a word. nive having friends, but watch you back! i am watching mine, i can say goodbye easily, but some people can't. just warning you.